“Therefore we do not lose heart, but though our outer man is decaying, yet our inner man is being renewed day by day. For momentary, light affliction is producing for us an eternal weight of glory far beyond all comparison, while we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen; for the things which are seen are temporal, but the things which are not seen are eternal.” 2 Corinthians 4:16-18
In 1996 I was evaluated for a pain management clinic. At the end of our meeting, the doctor stated that he thought that I was depressed. As my wife and I left his office, I looked at Marie and said something like “Do you think?” I had been struggling with severe pain for five years and seizures for two with no clear cause or treatment plan for either; eating was a struggle causing me to be significantly underweight; and a few months before, my mother had died. It was a bit much to handle all at once and I was more than a little depressed. A few years later as God began to educate me with respect to reconciling my illness to His promised love for me, I had a major hurdle. I had recently read that a woman with symptoms similar to mine had live to be 89 years old. I was only 39; the thought of living like this for another 50 years was overwhelming to say the least. I felt like I was being tortured. But when I yielded to God and began to open my heart to accept His plan for me, the weight of it all began to lighten.
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